I need it.

You're the kind of person that makes my life
hard and easy
ugly and beautiful
All at the same time.

You make my life so
difficult;
But,
I could never in a
million years
Live without you.

I need to love you.
I need too hold you.
I need to hold your emotions in my heart.
Your anger
Your sadness
Your hate
Your resentment.

I need it.
I need my life when
You're in it.
You are the only one
who can keep me sane.
You keep me tied together.
You are the string that has tied my body together.
You've held my mind together.

Your love is the only thing that i feel.
I don't know what it looks like
but I feel it.
I need to breathe you.
I need to feel you.
I need you to show me what this is supposed to be
Because I don't know.

Lead me through your maze,
the maze, your life.
Your mind and soul.

You leave me behind.
You get my hopes
up high.
I trust you.
You hold all of my heart but
it's gone to pieces.

I need you to hold me together.
I need you to be my horrors
and demons.
Crawl out from under my bed,
smother me with your thoughts and love.
I'll let you in
Forgive me.
Don't go.
Save me.
I need you.

We weren't...

So I know things didn't go as planned... Weren't we supposed to be the people that everyone was jealous of? I gave lame excuses. For every thing, actually. The was I acted, saying no all of the time, was the worst thing I could have done. I could have just explained myself. I never realized how stupid our little fights were. We would argue about the most minuscule bull shit. I ruined one of the greatest things that ever happened to me  because I let my pride get in the way. I always did that. Then I always felt really guilty. I'm glad I felt guilty. I hate the fact that I miss you so much. So many things remind me of you. Almost all if my music, movies, every spider, oh my gosh, every pair of tighty whities. So much. We had so many memories. Every time Kings of Leon comes on and I hear "Sex on Fire" I remember talking to you about how the song was about chlamydia. And We The Kings. Seriously. Every single song. Whenever any of their songs come on I get flooded of memories of us. Disneyland reminds me of you. The Little Mermaid even reminds me if you. I can't even handle this anymore. It isn't worth fighting for. Like, I'm not saying that I want it to go back to normal, but I want to talk to you. I want to be like we used to, but I know you don't, but I still want to talk. I already said that! I suck at this. I'm not even trying to do anything. I'm just trying to spark up a conversation. I guess... You know what's funny to me? If I wrote a letter to someone it usually takes a lot of time and effort for me to get to the bottom of the page. But with this letter I ran out of room way too fast. I have so much to think about with you. There is so much I could say to you. I never thought that I would find someone like you, let alone become close to or lose. I'm sorry. I lied before. I was totally ungreatful and I didn't realize how much you meant to me until you were out of my grip. 

Love,

Franni. 

P.S. I should have said yes. 

Harder.

    I don't even need to hear anything else.
    I just need to know that someday,
    You'll see me the way I see
You.
    I look at you with so much
respect.
    I want be happy like you
one day.
    I want to be loved by everyone
one day.
    Your eyes are the lights that seem to
guide me.
    through the night.
    You give me
direction.
    You push me to keep
moving.
    I can't think of anyone,
anyone,
    I cant think of anyone else who I hate missing
like You.
    You've stolen my heart and there is
no way
    I can get it back.
    I cant think straight.
    You make me weak in the knees.
How did this happen?
How did you appear so fast?
Out of no where.

I can't stand you not being around.
    Don't you know the effect you have on me?
    You only have to say one word and
I lose my mind.
    I couldn't ever say
goodbye
    to you.
    We were meant for
each other.
    You love me,
I love you, Harder.

Dust in the Wind

Oh Hello,

I didn't see you there...
With that blank expression on your face.

Your eyes are daggers.
They pierce my,
already broken,
heart.

You've gotten under my skin.
I feel you
I feel your heart beat
... your hands on my soul
... your eyes caressing my heart.

There isn't anything like you
where I'm from.

Your exterior so rough,
mean.
Your insides are so warm,
sweet.
Your emotions make my heart flutter.
Your sadness makes it sink and
your smile makes it leap.

I know how you are.
I see the true you.
You let me in when
Everyone left.
I was your only
friend.
was.

Now we're dust in the wind.